Monday, October 19, 2015

Late Night Thoughts

*thoughts from 10/17/15* 

It is late; however I’m very much awake. Though I’ve had a long busy day, it has been a good one because of all that needed to be done. Any time I’m extremely productive it feels like a day well spent. And so it was, and now I feel spent. I’m physically exhausted, but mentally the engines are running at full force. So here I am cozied up in bed, writing away the energy. With my fairy lights aglow, my birch candle ablaze, and the soft lull of a classical melody filling the space the only thought that comes to mind is what a perfect way to end the day.

 What my day consisted of: 
-I woke up in my comfy queen bed (I had to come home from uni) 
-learned I will be needing glasses (reason why I came home from uni) 
-went to several home improvement stores and have basically decided everything in my house needs updating (don’t worry, my parents are fine with it & trust my design abilities lol) 
-replaced all of the hardware to a nice brushed stainless steel 
-painted one of our bathrooms a taupe-ish grey (nice, light, & sophisticated) 
-And came up with a gameplay for the rest of the renovations 

Not only was this a good day because of how productive it was, but mainly because of what was being accomplished. (Time to get into the super deep stuffz). As I haven’t held back from mentioning, life has been tough lately. A lot of that has to do with the transitioning to university and ultimately adulthood. Me being me, I make it unnecessarily stressful and draining. Which I cope with; one way is by occasionally coming home to recharge. In order to recharge, I find being creative is what does that for me. And having chances to be creative in the way I'd like to be (i.e. interior design) is something I have been lacking at school. This revelation has brought on many questions. Am I happy with my major? (It’s too soon to say I think). What can I do differently? What do I want and need? How can I achieve that? 

These last two questions really stump and somewhat frustrate me. I can visualize what I’d love to do, but a) I’m afraid it isn’t necessarily practical, b) that I’m being overly ambitious and unrealistic, and c) that it isn’t possible at this moment in time because I need to devote my time to my studies. And not going to lie, it sucks. Sometimes it feels as though I’ve yet to get my life going. However I think we’ve all had moments like that when we wonder why what we want can’t happen right now. Though I’m feeling like this tonight as I reflect, this isn’t a usual occurrence. I’ve made peace with the natural course and timing of things. 

And how I did so is mainly why I’ve decided to share this train wreck of a post incase others are feeling this way, as well. Whether you're religious or not, the overarching meaning of the following quotes can be helpful; I know they've helped me positively push forward: 

“Don’t mistake God’s patience for His absence. His timing is perfect, and His presence is constant. He’s always with you.” -Deuteronomy 31:6 

“Sometimes we don’t understand why we are waiting. Often it is because God has something great in store, it’s just not the right time.” -Joel Osteen 

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” 

Even though I will be patient whilst moving in the direction of my heart’s desires, I’m still going to take little steps forward. It may all be in God’s timing, but that doesn’t mean I still can’t try to stick to my own schedule. Because within those periods of trying, eventually it is the right time. The impossible will become possible and the unattainable will become attainable. 

And, as always, things have a way of working out.



  1. These are such beautiful quotes. I love the first one! A lot of times people think that not getting what they want right away means that God doesn't care about them or that He is not listening.

    Sounds like you had a productive weekend! Good job :)

    xo Azu

  2. God knows the timing of everything, so I always trust him in everything and I know everything will be ok. :)

    And that sounds like a very productive day indeed! :D

    Pam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥

  3. I know it's completely out of topic, but I wanted to tell you that your style of writing is fantastic! There is something so special about it and I would definitely read a book written by you, haha :) x

  4. I feel you girl...Sometimes I feel this way too
    Am I happy with what I'm doing? Do I want to
    do it for the rest of my life? There are so many things
    that I would like to do as well but the circumstances are not helping...
    We should always stay positive and believe that great things will happen
    anyway thanks for visiting my blog! your blog is lovely too :)
    I just followed back
    xoxo Rose,

  5. I'm a huge over thinker but just focus on the positives and keep doing what you love. Everything will work out when your ready to move on :)